Monday, August 22, 2011

Now vs. then

I hope the saying's true about things getting really bad before they get better...because things are REALLY bad right now. It's kind of one of those times where it feels as if things will never change--someone will never feel well again. Laughter won't be rare. You won't be awake until 4am because your body won't let you sleep. Pain won't be present every second. Work won't become something that doesn't transport you to another place but feels as though it's taking you away from a person who needs you. Life won't be at a standstill. Time won't revolve around pills. Bottles of vicodin, morphine, dilaudid, oxy and a zillion other medications won't be permanent fixtures of the bedroom. Doctor visits won't be cried over.


Smiles will be real and more present. Life will still be challenging, but won't feel insurmountable. Going out will be an option. Alcohol will be consumed. Dancing to Top 20 hits will leave you feeling exhausted in the best way. Work will be something that calls to you during the day and keeps you up late into the night. Life will just BE.

After this is over, I swear I'll never complain about anything again. Nothing will ever compare to this.


  1. Hang in there. God has a reason for everything, I'm sure...and remember Jesus DIED for us, so whatever you are going through in your life, He more than gets the pain of it!

    --Keep your chin up! :)

  2. Hang in there Jess. You'll get throuhg this one way or anothor. You just have to look up at a new day and seek to make it better. You'll turn this around soon.

  3. Lucia is so right. If you can just barely see the light at then end of the black tunnel, everything will be alright...even if there isn"t any light yet.

  4. It will all be ok! Don't drink too much alcohol! XD

  5. I'm so sorry about what happened. I am on book 18 which I preordered from barnes and noble. Please keep writing Canterwood Crest books I absolutely adore them.